The Famous Internet Artist – Regina: Chapter 8, I have a feeling

08 – Regina
I have a feeling
Tue, Jul 30, 2015 06:54 AM
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Hello my dear friend. How are you doing today? how is your mood, how is your health?
Today when I went to an internet cafe, my mood improved. I can not explain to you, but
I have a feeling that today I would see your answer. I have this feeling from morning,
and so when I come here after work and saw the confirmation to my sense, then my mood got
even better. My day started as usual, at 8.30 am, I went to my job. Every day I start my
job at 9:00 am.

I am very glad that our correspondence continued. We also can know each other, share
ideas and views on various topics. All this gave me great pleasure. And I want to develop
our relationship further.You are far away from Azerbaijan. In a country with a different language spoken, I have already told you that here the native language Azerbaijani. But I see no problem in
understanding each other. I can easily explain to you what I think, feel, and it is very
important that you understand it correctly.

I could never find such a good person like you in my country. Here, a man and a woman,
have little or no relationship till marriage. Sometimes they are meet only few times
before. Such traditions here. Of course, some men pay attention to me, but I’m right
girl while I live here. And I respect all the traditions of my country. So I never let
the men somehow be attentive to me. If I go out of my country, I will not stick to these
principles. I told you that if I decide to leave Azerbaijan, I will do it only for a
loved man. And I understand that the development of such relations must give up many of
the principles of my religion and my upbringing. I’m really ready to do it. Of course the
first time after leaving Azerbaijan, it will be very hard for me. Because I come to
another country, in another culture. I’ll feel some loneliness. Because all my friends
will be here in Azerbaijan. But on the other hand, I, will be with the beloved man. And
I’m sure that he will do everything to make me feel comfortable.

I want to tell you that each of your letter make sense of closeness to you. It’s like I
feel, see and hear everything that you write in your letters. It is an incredible
feeling. I had never experienced such. Now I understand that made the right choices when
I first time write you.I really want to develop our relationship with you to make it to grow into something more. But I do not want to rush. Since it is very serious, may depend on my future life
and my destiny. Therefore, if our relationship grow into a strong feeling, I want this
to be deliberate. For you and I feel it.

I also have another sense that one day our correspondence with you turn into a strong
feeling. I am a woman, and like any woman, I have a strong intuition. And I believe it.

Now I begin to understand that I am not alone. That I have good person, which is far
away from me. Who support me, and that person you are. I can tell you all that I think.
You’re a man and you always tell me your opinion. Your opinion is always important for
me. Because you’re more experienced than I am. You have a lot more life experience than
I am. And it’s always interesting when you share it with me. I wonder every word you
write. And I’m very happy that I could find a good man online. I’m sure you’re very good. And I
can not trust you, and say all the innermost.

Therefore, in this letter, I want to say one very important thing. For me it is important
that you understand me. You know that I live in a Muslim country. And it have its own
traditions and laws. In the tradition of our country, girl must be innocent (virgin)
until marriage. The girl should lose it only in the wedding night. And if she violates
this law, it will be disgraced, and would never be able to have a family. This rule is
followed by all the girls in our country. Perhaps that is why, in our country there is no
such terrible thing as prostitution. Police closely monitor this. I think that’s good.
Do you agree with me?

I also follow the law of Islam. And for all my life, I never had sex with a man. I
remain a virgin.

You can ask me how this is possible, but it is. I was brought up and raised in this
country, and with these traditions. Yes, I’m already 27 years old, and I do not have any
sexual experience. Perhaps you find it hard to believe it, because you live in another
country, with other moral norms. In your country, women have a different behavior, the
other freedom, and they can decide what to do and when. Maybe it’s better. But I do not
regret that I remain a virgin. Since I believe that I must give it only to one man, the
one whom I love. The one who will love me. And with whom I will build a family. This will
be the only man for the rest of my life. Only after I myself strongly love someone to
want to spend with him all my life: When I see his love, care, affection and support, I
make love to a man and build a family with him. I hope you understand me right?

I would also want to say in this letter about how I see the relationship with the man. I
have a view of the long-term relationship based on mutual love. I believe that both
person should try to make each other happy. More talk, discuss various issues, to
compromise and the right decisions. Two people who love each other, should understand and
support their love. Have to trust each other. Also an important skill, in my opinion,
is the ability to forgive. All people one day make a mistakes and to forgiveness
possible not a lot of people. Of course you can’t forgive everything. I will never
forgive infidelity or betrayal. It is very painful. And so I always try to tell the
truth. Lying kills any relationship and prevents live. It is better to tell people the
truth, which can be bitter, but it is true, rather than to deceive. A relationship built
on love, trust, understanding and sincerity, is the strongest relationship.
What do you think about the relationship? I’m very interested to know, I think that this
is the same as my thoughts.

I want to know it all, and tell you everything that you could see my serious. Able to
understand what I want. So I write to you all this detail. I think that once you write a lot more about all this. Once I reveal to you a soul. And you completely understand and feel how I feel.

I look forward to your next letter. I want to see your answer, read your mind. Also send
me your new photos. Write about everything that happens in your life. I would love to
read everything that you write me. I want to think that this letter get even one small
step toward building our relationship. This letter, I hope, will be another brick for the
foundation of our relationship.
We’re just starting to build it. And from what we build it, will probably depend on our
future life. We build our own destiny, and to choose our future.
I would also like to tell you a little more about my favorite things. Sometimes, when
it’s raining, I like to sit near the window and watch the street. At these moments, I
think about some very important things. And even the thunder do not scare me. I guess I
like thunder.

I also really like to go to the sea. I told you that I live not too far from the coast of
the Caspian Sea. And in the summer when the weather is good, the weekend I like to spend
my free time there. Since sea water is very good for health. With this my letter I’m
sending you a picture which made on a coast of the Caspian Sea.
Now I’m going home. I think it would be hard to sleep because I have a lot of different
thoughts. I’ll think of you, present and dream of you. I very much want to see a beautiful dream that you and I together.

I think that soon I will be able to buy a phone card to call you. Unfortunately, I do not
have phone, where you can call me.I end my letter. Once again, thank you for what you continue to write to me!



08A – Tony
Flux Persona
Sat, Aug 01, 2015 06:23 PM

Hi Regina,

Thanks for your email. I  noticed that you sent the same message that was sent a few days ago. You also sent a picture that you have already sent. This is very strange. I’m starting to wonder if there are really 2 of you or are you just sending the same messages to make sure that I received them? I’m not sure, but I would really enjoy an original email from the source of your letters and pictures. You see, I’m using your letters and pictures in an art project and I really can’t continue if you keep sending me the same material. You would really enjoy my art project. It deals with computer technology and false identities. I am curious to explore why some people will try to connect with other people over internet, even if they are using alternative versions of themselves. I think that you are one of these alternative identities. I’m not sure if the text and pictures that you send is the actual person that I am communicating with. Don’t worry, I’m not mad about it, but I am curious to continue communicating and to find out why people like to use identities that drift away from their actual selves.

Can’t wait to get your next email. Please make sure to make it a really good false one and to include another image of someone who you are not.


The Famous Internet Artist – Regina: Chapter 8, I have a feeling